I left this place to rot haha. In fact, I left alot of places to rot. But that's going to change.

I'm getting back in gear from July onwards. 2009 was a cold year, i skipped CF and AFA (or so) and went back to EOY. I kinda have Drefan to thank for organising that DW shoot in Dec 09, that's how i met Ziru, Lionel, Huiwei, Rimei, Kelton, Pinkkatsyah, BenJ and Kenny. Then you know, new people branches out to more new people and more projects pop up.

Getting back in touch with Rhoda was nice and came with a small price to pay. She decided to sit down and think about the future, regretted not continuing her studies when she had the chance 7 years ago. Yes, SEVEN. That's where the trouble came. She had always been the indecisive person that she is and that is dragging her down. Time is no longer on your side, you can't afford to delay. Only you can decide what you really wanna do and do it fast.

She wants to go back to school and has hesitations of what to study. There are too many options out there and i really think she has no idea what she wants. We can't tell her what's good or bad.

Then there's her paranoid problem. Too many what-ifs came drowning and it's becoming to become a negative impact, dragging her down. She wants to either go back to school or find a stable job.

School led to school fees. Work led to qualifications. She is so demoralized at her qualifications, thinking nobody would hire her coz of zero experience. She doesn't have a resume and is not writing one up. I have no idea what's keeping her from doing so. I have comforted her countless times, "只要你肯做， 不可能找不到工作".

Good news is she did find a job as a roadshow personnel for a credit card... So here's wishing her good luck.

For me, i was not confirmed for my previous probation period. The company was paranoid over my medical condition, asking me what it exactly is countless times and what can trigger it. They suggest me to find a new job as they cannot afford to give me too much workload in fear that might stress me too much and trigger an attack. Stupid insurance company...

So here i am, unemployed at the moment, for 2 weeks now. I had been to 2 interviews but nothing came back. Time to send more resumes out. What sucks is with no stable income, i can't afford to spend too much on costume expenses and the 2 year-end ones are pretty complicated.

For AFA '10

For EOY'10 (BET NOBODY THOUGHT I PICKED HIM)

Good thing i have gotten the necessary materials settled before that bullshit came and i'm kept occupied with weapon/ armor construction to prevent me from aimlessly waste time outside thus spending on anything.

Keiji's sword is almost half completed! I can't believe it was possible, well the foam debris knocked me into reality...

Check out this big boy (1.6m tall)

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 1:53 PM